Rain

It's been raining here in Sosua.  Pouring at times.

I never know what the weather will be when I wake up or how the day will unfold... or what the Lord might speak to me.  But I know it's always good.

God is being so gentle with me, yet He's asking everything of me.  I kind of thought leaving my land, home, job, friends, and family was everything, but God is asking for more.  He always is.

How can I complain, though, when I've been asking the same of Him?

I realized this week that I don't want to seal myself in a bubble or limit the plans God has.  Thing is, I have to let go of some securities and open my heart for more.

I long to dive into the culture here, speak Spanish fluently, be out in the communities serving, be an empty vessel for the Lord to use.

But part of me is fearful to do so.  I'm finding myself afraid to fully surrender my spirit to greatest Spirit there is.  I've done it in the past, yet something in me has been anxious this time.

In my time with the Lord yesterday, I began confessing this fear and resistance,  asking Him to pour out His Spirit and help me surrender.

Remember that rain? Well, I was on the roof and saw the clouds coming in, then I felt the slightest drops on my arms.

I retreated to covering but nothing happened.  Then I felt God speak into me, "It will come.  Just like this rain, I will rain down in your life.  It is a process."  Not even 3 minutes passed by before the winds picked up and skies released a torrential down pour.

I'm so grateful for how He speaks to my heart.

Later at church, the preacher opened with Ephesians 3:20 which proclaims that our Lord "is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power at work within us."


CONVICTED.

The last number of my blog address, 320, refer to this very verse in Ephesians.  God placed this scripture in my heart months ago as a promise of the work He plans to do around, in ,and through me.  God would put that right in front my face that morning.

I'm so glad He has a sense of humor.

God always keeps His promises.  He loves raining down incredible freedom, peace, joy, and love in His presence.  It doesn't always happen the way we think it will, but when we walk in faith and obedience, not in fear, His Spirit is there waiting to move, blow, and pour out in our lives.